Chasing My Thirties Entry #4

Monday March 24th 2025

My hysterectomy is tomorrow morning.

I wish I could tell you that I'm all calm, cool, and collected, but I'm really not. My hormones are through the roof and my anxiety is starting to kick in; my blood sugar may also be low but I'll have dinner soon so it'll be fine. While I'm terrified for my surgery tomorrow, I know I need it, I know it's for the best, and I know it's what my body needs to heal. I just wish it wasn't so intense. I'm lucky to be having it done laparoscopically so it's less invasive, but it's still major surgery.

To be honest, I was hoping to feel more chatty this evening, but I'm stressed from getting things prepped before I'm down for a little while and I'm stressed about being away from work for so long for the first in my new role. I know it will all be fine, it's just a lot at once and I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. I also really hate being down and I'm so ready to be out of this nightmare I've been living in these past eighteen fucking months. And don't even get me started on the last two months because I still don't understand what changed and I'm really praying for answers tomorrow.

I appreciate everyone who has been reaching out and checking in. I'll update everyone on how surgery went as soon as I can.

-A